Knowing His Will vs. Knowing Him

As I see this quarter quickly coming to an end I can’t help but think of how if I had transferred on time I would be a part of this year’s graduating class. Knowing that, I get freaked out because if I was indeed graduating on time I would have no idea what I to do next with my life and can’t avoid asking the question, “God, what is your will for my life? What is it that you want me to do?”. Amidst all the worrying and thinking about my future, God reminded of some things that I read earlier this year to bring comfort and trust along with repentance.

I get so easily caught up in wanting to know what God’s will for my life is that I have forgotten what is more important: KNOWING HIM. If I truly knew Him then I would know that God is sovereign over everything in my life so even if He doesn’t reveal His will for my life I should be okay with that because I know Him and know that He is good and sovereign. And if I’m not okay with that then that just shows that I value knowing His will more than knowing Him.

So why is it that I value His will so much? It’s probably because I know that God’s will is perfect and so I believe that if God revealed what His will for my life was then I could just follow it and expect my life to be perfect. I wouldn’t have to experiment or try new things and experience failures and mistakes because I know that I just need to follow whatever His will is. That may sound okay but that just reveals my own selfishness. I don’t want to know God’s will because I want to glorify Him; I want to know His will so that I don’t have to go through mistakes, failures, pain, uncertainty, etc. I want to know His will for my glory and for this I have had to repent.

Another reason why I’m so crazy about knowing God’s will is because I think that if I don’t figure it out then I’ll miss out or waste my life. But that would mean that if I didn’t end up figuring it out then I would be living outside of God’s will; but, that’s not true. Everything that happens and has happened is and was according to God’s will. It’s not like if I don’t figure out what my career is supposed to be then God has to somehow switch plans. God is always on Plan A; there is no Plan B.

So, what am I supposed to be doing instead of spending all this time worrying about what God’s will is? Be faithful to the will He has already revealed through His word. Commandments such as going out to share the gospel, feeding the hungry, helping the poor, etc. are all a part of His already revealed will. So am I being faithful to them? If I can’t even stay faithful to the things He has already revealed then how can I expect to be faithful to the will He may reveal later?

Lord, help me to be faithful to the parts of your will that you have already revealed.